The week was going fine.
Then THAT happened 2 days ago.

And now I'm sad.

Still am til today.

I don't feel like going to work.
I just want to roll around in bed and sleep away the pain.

But life goes on.

My grandfather, uncle(s), friends of friends, cats over the years and Micheal Jackson.
They have one thing in common, and it's pretty easy to guess.

So, here I put down my will. JUST IN CASE.



LEVEL 1

First and foremost, when my time has come, I would like my parents, brothers and sister to be the first ones to know.
They, in turn will have to inform my official bestfriend Sofia Farizan.
She then holds the responsibility to inform others who are not related but knew me, about my (un)timely death.

She, as well, is the only person other than myself who knows my password to e-mails and other website related accounts
thus she also holds the responsibility of posting up a notice of my death on my Livejournal, Facebook wall and Deviant Art journal.

Preferably contain the lines "I died. Sorry guys, see you on the other side."


LEVEL 2

Someone, no constraint on whom, will take a picture of my grave and put it up as a default userpic on all my website accounts.
If a name or caption is needed, please reuse the lines stated above that was for my online journal(s).


LEVEL 3

Any money that was supposed to be for my use left in bank account(s), will of course be directed back to my parents, who in turn I would like them to use it to support my brothers and sister. And cats.

Any other items that was formerly in my possession will be spread out among these people listed, priority starts from the top.

• My parents
• Alianna Nadiah
• Mohd Fahmi & Mohd Faisal
• Sofia Farizan binti Awarudin
• Adila Khairul Anuar, Rachel Au, Valerie Tan, Tan Hsiu Ping, Margeret Tan
• Mohd Hafiz bin Faisal

I want my sister in particular to inherit my computer and laptop as well as handphone... and my DSLR camera.
She will get first dibs on my clothes too, next is Sofia, and etc.
I also want my father to inherit the typewriter that was owned by my grandfather before me.
If there are any items that don't fit anywhere with anyone, I would like them to be donated to charity.


LEVEL 4

I'd like to be remembered on the 20th of April every year.
But would appreciate it if no one cried after my funeral.


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Okay, I think that's done. I'll update it after a while. If I live long enough.

:)

shortfilm assignment was hell, and continued to be even 24 hours AFTER the deadline.

will rant bout it later.

but right now just want to share my new darling that came in the mail about 3 days ago.


My old one was busted (only after 2 short years) but oh well... I'm awesomely glad with the new one.
Interchangable covers (I have this green one and a red one), my iPhone theme works beautifully and...
I can check my Gmail and Hotmail with it. Yey. :D

A lot of really cool features, and it's a huge upgrade too! My last phone was RM600 and this is only more expensive by... RM100++ so yeah, pretty worth the money. :)

So, I bid goodbye to my old darling that has over the years berbakti to my needs.
R.I.P. dear friend...



And yes, if you haven't noticed yet, I'm a fan of flip phones ;D they be the coolest.

let things be fine. let things be fine. let things be fine.

it will go well. it will go well. it will go well.

please, i can't take this anymore!

I'm getting increasingly tired, and my classic signs of stress are showing up:

• dandruff
• loss of appetite
• easily fatigued
• thinner than usual patience

I'm just really worried for the team.
I feel like there's so much to be done.
The important parts of it aren't getting much progress.
Because I'm just inefficient.


I think recently Hafiz has been on the receiving end of a lot of 'blowing off steam' moments.
There were times when he would snap back and we'd just fight more...
But for the most part I realised that he's been very patient.
He tries to get my mind off of it for a while, get me relaxed, then push me to do what I need to.


...my phone is busted.
I can't call nor receive any.
And it's such an important time too, since we're shooting the film this week.


Then, my laptop seems to be refusing to get Adobe CS4 shit installed into it.
And right now I think the most important programs are like Photoshop, After Effects and Premier Pro.


Which reminds me, some assholes in Digital Mall are less than helpful.
I hate it when chinese people talk chinese between themselves when I'm right there, supposed to be in the know as well.
Good thing bout my classmates in college is that, if I stand there, they'd automatically translate for me, without me asking.
Now that's what I call considerate and friendly.


Speaking of which...
A few people in class knows about my.. uh... situation.
I'm thinking of announcing it to everyone on the last class of VST.
...but I don't know if it's necessary.
A bit of a 'I want to' vs. 'I need to'.

Ya know?

One thing's for sure tho... is that I'll probably choke up and get all emo.
and cry.

Ugh. :/

a) failure
b) douchebag
c) sloth
d) useless ass
e) ____________(fill in the blank)
f) all of the above
( blahblah )

MY DAHLING ARRIVED A WEEK EARLY!

Dell Studio XPS 16


:D :D :D :D

I want to thank dustyhawk  for helping me with the details, and of course my father who decided to get me this because it's RM2K cheaper than what we originally wanted to get.

Speaking of lappies, my brother is getting a 10" Lenovo netbook. And my mom's complaining that it'd be too small for the eyes to see and fingers to type. Ha.



and in other breaking news...


NISA FINALLY HAS A TWITTEEERRRRRR :D
creatively named....


dramatika.




....prpedictable aint it.


Visual Storytelling class is a slow killer, but I'm (literally) praying for the best of the whole group.
EVERYONE GANBATTEEEEHHHH!

OSSU!

;D
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just wanted to post this up cuz it reminded me of akirasama89  haha.

Remember that motorbike ad shoot that I went to some time ago?

The ad is ready and tubed! Won't be coming out on TV til June tho, but eh, we get to see it first :D
Thanks to Delia for the heads up (and omg so maluuuuu that you read that!!! haha!)

Found 2 of them, the first just some close ups of the bike, and the 2nd with the actual robot.









I wanna see it on a bigger screen! :O

www.goldinuniverse.com

Name: Anisa
Date: 3/19/2009
Colorgenics Number: 47015263

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It would appear that you are experiencing one problem after another. When one problem is resolved, another seems to immediately take its place. It could well be that you are trying too desperately to evade or to escape from your present situation and it is 'you' that is causing the problems to manifest themselves. You need to slow down a little.

Recently you have been experiencing considerable mental anguish and turmoil. You are bored and discontent. Nothing seems to be going right for you. Even your relationships aren't working out and you don't quite know which way to turn.

You feel that you deserve far more than is being attributed to you, but there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

There is considerable amount of stress present in your life at this time and this is perhaps due to some considerable mental and physical frustration. There are various physical needs that are necessary for your well-being but whatever the reasons - mostly of your own making - your needs are not being fulfilled. We wonder why? You are under the impression that nobody seems to care for you. This predicament is most uncomfortable and it is because of this that you are experiencing far more stress than you feel you can cope with. You need to find a soul mate - someone who truly understands you and whose standards are as high as your own. As matters stand you would like to break away from the vicious cycle that you find yourself entrapped but this is easier said than done. You refuse to compromise with your opinions and essentially you are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of the necessary decision. You are stubborn but this should be no deterrent experiencing a happy life.

You feel utterly wretched - worn out. The demands that other people have been making on you have depleted your strength and stamina. You feel powerless to try to remedy the situation on your own and you are looking for what is hopefully known as 'divine intervention'. But be assured your salvation lies in yourself - you have the ability so use it.

3 nights in a row.

I slept in my jeans, 3 nights in a row. You have any idea how uncomfortable that is? Yeah well it is.
Every night now every time I get back home, I just drop unconscious onto the bed.
Then I wake up in the morning cursing -cuz there's work that was needed to be done the night before.


This morning I was woken up by my computer, which was on and playing iTunes the whole night.
Fucking Hoobastank's noise woke me up.
At 3.30 in the morning.


Talk about waking up on the wrong side of the bed.


Making things worse, last night, after a couple of weeks of bliss we had yet another fight.
Funny thing, this time it wasn't me who was saying "screw you" and all that.
Worst of all I ended up crying at the hotel lobby.
And on the ride back home.

Once I reached home, I received 8 pages worth of hammering in a message.

*sigh*




The only person that I can talk to without having underlying tones of depression or frustration...

SFA and RNI, please, i apologise for bailing out on the both of you that nightbut I couldn't stand the fact that the both of you are fighting. I hope that by now you guys dah settle. OYL and SCSM, both of you are stressed and both of you got on each others' nerves one way or another. I hope you guys are ok by now too. RA, you are being very annoying right now. VERY. Annoying. You know very well why. and oh, sometimes I just feel like SLAPPING THE SHIT out of Miss A, Mr B, Mr C and Pair D+E.



I'm fucking tired. So fucking tired.

Give me a God damned break.

...on facebook.



Dedicated to my brother in England. :D

Much love from your siblings back here.

I'm in the middle of writing my UCAS personal statement. Basically I have to sell myself.

So there's this one part where I'm boasting about how I've had designers in my lineage mainly my great-great-grandfather, Dato' Mata-Mata, who was one of the contributing architects of the Istana Maziah for the Sultan of Terengganu, and someone much closer to me, my mother, who's an extablished architect, owning Reka Konsult, a Malaysian Partnership Firm of Architects and Interior Designers.


Then it hit me- both of them are ARCHITECTS. Flashback to a few years back when my mom asked if I had any interest in architectural studies... I was on the fence.

Sigh.

Right now, though I am somehow enjoying my course, I can't help but wonder if it was better if I pursued architecture. I mean, my highschool grades were more than enough. I can draw AND (at the time) my math was satisfactory. By now I'd be doing a professional course, and my parents would be in a better state of mind -cuz of the 'professional' thing. And how financially it's a more stable working field.

In the end I chose what I liked... Comics and games.

And here I am studying digital animation.



Blah. Maybe I should leave that part out... and stick to "I've been interested in Animation since I was a child, blah blah blah". Just BS my way through.

Today was a pretty hectic day, a lot of running around and multi-tasking here and there.
Went up and down college, and then some in Pyramid, then summore in TTDI... gosh.
And to think I did it all in heels. :/

Kind of a long story on that part but basically I just wanna say that...


MY DSLR IS A-OK!

Thank GOD.

:D

Guy said that if it's working just fine then there's no need to send it to the service center.
I quote, "Sometimes if its ok, then they open up just to check, then from there become not ok edi, so better not send unless you see a real problem."


So ok, I'll pretend like everything's fine, and if I notice ANY sort of dysfunction it's WARRANTY TO THE RESCUE! :DDD

but mostly disappointed.

And I still am.

So I refuse to communicate with you in any way for now.


Do what you want, with or without us.
Apparently we are just a bunch of useless sloths to you.


Sort out your own immaturity first, then get back to me so we can be professional about it.

Okay?