Dear Mama and Papa,

Thank you for all that you've done for me.
I'm sorry for being rude and harsh at times.
But I'm suffocating.

Please, let me fly.

Love, your first daughter.

I bet we ALL do.
But I have someone constantly reminding me of it.
And it stings.

but I bet we ALL do.
what sets me aside from you is that I have visible proof.
and it stings.

WHY DO I KEEP LOVING YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU?!




It's automatic
Systematic
So traumatic
You're automatic

Each step you make
Each breath you take
Your heart. Your soul.
Remote-controlled
This life is so sick
You're automatic to me



BRB fangirling. XD

"Hello."

"Hey."

"What's up? I'm a-"

"What're you doing now?"

"I'm a bit busy right now, can't talk..."

"Busy doing what?"

"I'm in the middle of a Boss Battle."

"Hm. Ok, selamat berbuka."

"K bye."

"Bye."






Gamer boyfriends. *rolls eyes*

Selamat menyambut Hari Kebangsaan Malaysia yang ke-52. Semoga kita semua akan menghayati detik-detik kemerdekaan masa kelam.

Bahasa melayu ku sudah berkarat. Ahahaha..... *mukatapaktangan*




Merdeka! :)

Stopped mah job at Borders.
Leaving for the UK on Sept 18th.
Both my brothers are down with the flu.
Currently on self-quarantine for a whole week.
I am no longer single because no matter what I can never steer away from him.
Masks are horrible to wear and makes it harder to breathe.
Had a medical checkup and I'm disease free. HIV too. *yay*


AND OH. VERY IMPORTANT.

My phone is acting up, so if i don't reply/call back, suck it up.
I will, just a bit later.

anyone dares to text me saying ANYTHING close to "sombong" I swear I'll find you, sneeze in your face and throw YOUR damned handphone right in your face so deep that it has to be surgically removed. Comprehende?


Other than that, Happy Ramadhan to all Muslims! :)

Haters to the left I'm FREAKIN EXCITED.

TOKIO HOTEL'S UPCOMING SINGLE PREVIEWWWW




Also...

Don't get me wrong or anything, I love the new look of Bill (or whatever of his, even his newly(?) pierced nipple (!!) and... dreads.)
But...



Seriously looks like




Just sayin :D

to Yasmin Ahmad, whose death was untimely, as well as Feisty, the best cat to take a nap with.

The week was going fine.
Then THAT happened 2 days ago.

And now I'm sad.

Still am til today.

I don't feel like going to work.
I just want to roll around in bed and sleep away the pain.

But life goes on.

My grandfather, uncle(s), friends of friends, cats over the years and Micheal Jackson.
They have one thing in common, and it's pretty easy to guess.

So, here I put down my will. JUST IN CASE.



LEVEL 1

First and foremost, when my time has come, I would like my parents, brothers and sister to be the first ones to know.
They, in turn will have to inform my official bestfriend Sofia Farizan.
She then holds the responsibility to inform others who are not related but knew me, about my (un)timely death.

She, as well, is the only person other than myself who knows my password to e-mails and other website related accounts
thus she also holds the responsibility of posting up a notice of my death on my Livejournal, Facebook wall and Deviant Art journal.

Preferably contain the lines "I died. Sorry guys, see you on the other side."


LEVEL 2

Someone, no constraint on whom, will take a picture of my grave and put it up as a default userpic on all my website accounts.
If a name or caption is needed, please reuse the lines stated above that was for my online journal(s).


LEVEL 3

Any money that was supposed to be for my use left in bank account(s), will of course be directed back to my parents, who in turn I would like them to use it to support my brothers and sister. And cats.

Any other items that was formerly in my possession will be spread out among these people listed, priority starts from the top.

• My parents
• Alianna Nadiah
• Mohd Fahmi & Mohd Faisal
• Sofia Farizan binti Awarudin
• Adila Khairul Anuar, Rachel Au, Valerie Tan, Tan Hsiu Ping, Margeret Tan
• Mohd Hafiz bin Faisal

I want my sister in particular to inherit my computer and laptop as well as handphone... and my DSLR camera.
She will get first dibs on my clothes too, next is Sofia, and etc.
I also want my father to inherit the typewriter that was owned by my grandfather before me.
If there are any items that don't fit anywhere with anyone, I would like them to be donated to charity.


LEVEL 4

I'd like to be remembered on the 20th of April every year.
But would appreciate it if no one cried after my funeral.


***

Okay, I think that's done. I'll update it after a while. If I live long enough.

:)

shortfilm assignment was hell, and continued to be even 24 hours AFTER the deadline.

will rant bout it later.

but right now just want to share my new darling that came in the mail about 3 days ago.


My old one was busted (only after 2 short years) but oh well... I'm awesomely glad with the new one.
Interchangable covers (I have this green one and a red one), my iPhone theme works beautifully and...
I can check my Gmail and Hotmail with it. Yey. :D

A lot of really cool features, and it's a huge upgrade too! My last phone was RM600 and this is only more expensive by... RM100++ so yeah, pretty worth the money. :)

So, I bid goodbye to my old darling that has over the years berbakti to my needs.
R.I.P. dear friend...



And yes, if you haven't noticed yet, I'm a fan of flip phones ;D they be the coolest.

let things be fine. let things be fine. let things be fine.

it will go well. it will go well. it will go well.

please, i can't take this anymore!

I'm getting increasingly tired, and my classic signs of stress are showing up:

• dandruff
• loss of appetite
• easily fatigued
• thinner than usual patience

I'm just really worried for the team.
I feel like there's so much to be done.
The important parts of it aren't getting much progress.
Because I'm just inefficient.


I think recently Hafiz has been on the receiving end of a lot of 'blowing off steam' moments.
There were times when he would snap back and we'd just fight more...
But for the most part I realised that he's been very patient.
He tries to get my mind off of it for a while, get me relaxed, then push me to do what I need to.


...my phone is busted.
I can't call nor receive any.
And it's such an important time too, since we're shooting the film this week.


Then, my laptop seems to be refusing to get Adobe CS4 shit installed into it.
And right now I think the most important programs are like Photoshop, After Effects and Premier Pro.


Which reminds me, some assholes in Digital Mall are less than helpful.
I hate it when chinese people talk chinese between themselves when I'm right there, supposed to be in the know as well.
Good thing bout my classmates in college is that, if I stand there, they'd automatically translate for me, without me asking.
Now that's what I call considerate and friendly.


Speaking of which...
A few people in class knows about my.. uh... situation.
I'm thinking of announcing it to everyone on the last class of VST.
...but I don't know if it's necessary.
A bit of a 'I want to' vs. 'I need to'.

Ya know?

One thing's for sure tho... is that I'll probably choke up and get all emo.
and cry.

Ugh. :/

a) failure
b) douchebag
c) sloth
d) useless ass
e) ____________(fill in the blank)
f) all of the above
( blahblah )

MY DAHLING ARRIVED A WEEK EARLY!

Dell Studio XPS 16


:D :D :D :D

I want to thank dustyhawk  for helping me with the details, and of course my father who decided to get me this because it's RM2K cheaper than what we originally wanted to get.

Speaking of lappies, my brother is getting a 10" Lenovo netbook. And my mom's complaining that it'd be too small for the eyes to see and fingers to type. Ha.



and in other breaking news...


NISA FINALLY HAS A TWITTEEERRRRRR :D
creatively named....


dramatika.




....prpedictable aint it.


Visual Storytelling class is a slow killer, but I'm (literally) praying for the best of the whole group.
EVERYONE GANBATTEEEEHHHH!

OSSU!

;D
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